Honestly, I started off the year saying I’ll read books… but this book took me a long time to finish compared to the first one…
My Synopsis:
About a girl called Bassey and her life from when she was young to when she gave birth to a Son. It is about her trying to live her life, survive and feel “normal” with her diagnosis of bipolar II and anxiety which she gets in the middle of the book.
Honest, raw, explicit, depressing, but depicts her life the way she expressed it
Not sure if I recommend it to be read because it is not a book I would say you learn anything from, it is hard to relate at least for me
But if you like being in someone’s head, this is a book you may want to read
– Rebecca
My Storyline:
Honestly I do not remember a lot of details. I just remember her family not really being proud of her so she moved to Brooklyn to have a life of her own, her own space. Then she runs into relationship problems with cheating boyfriends and also in general she loses faith in romance and just does not want to ruin people(?) or harm people because she feels she isn’t normal.
In the end, she gets a diagnosis and eats her meds, but after a while she feels that the meds take control of her life and decides not to take them. She then spirals and is admitted into the hospital where they observe her and after being interviewed by some students, she is released and then goes back home where her family are conscious of her. But in the end she writes about her son and how much she loves him.
My reflections:
So I just finished reading this book… and honestly it was a hard read for me because it is hard to relate to the author…
If I’m not wrong she is writing and penning down her thoughts but towards the end, where it was more I guess personal and relatable I found myself wanting to read more. Before that it felt very distanced, very third person, with very few details(?) that I could hold onto.
But this book is very I would say depressing, for the lack of a better word… it is just the deepest parts of someone’s brain their thoughts and their hardest times in their life. Not sure if it is because I read it over a large span of time (i.e. maybe a month or more) then all the memories and impressions of the book are scattered… but that is the lasting impression I have about what I read.
I applaud the author for really penning down all her feelings, and I hope it really was a therapeutic experience for her…
There were moments where I could relate to, some thoughts everyone would have once in a while but reading this book honestly made me feel grateful for the life I have and bad for taking it for granted.
There are other people with uncontrollable personal problems and I am here with problems that I can sort of fix. I am honestly find it very respectable and I applaud her for being able to get through it and I hope I can do the same with my life 🙂
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